Screen Test

So, it's already 11:45 P.M. I promised myself that I'll go to bed by 11:30 but I'm still here, doing some of my homework. I was out today with Miss Judy herself as she drop by here for a quick weekend trip. We did some catching up and it was really good to see her again, as usual. This could be the last time I'll see her until probably next year during Chinese New Year? But then again, who knows, I just might catch a flight back this end of the year and spend Christmas at home.

Anyway, it's a Saturday, who do I need to sleep early? No school tomorrow, right? Well, yeah, no school tomorrow but tomorrow is kinda a big deal to me. I got casted in a short film. Yup, that's right. There are only two characters in the film, a guy and a girl, so I guess I'm playing the female lead! Haahahaha. It's kinda a long story and while I've acted before, I've never done it for the camera. I'm honestly pretty nervous because I don't know what to expect. What if I screw up? I dunno. I really don't.

I've read the script and have done my actor's homework. It's called Confidential and it's about a girl, Shondra who needs a job and is being interviewed on the phone. The lines are not too long and I think I can handle that but as for the other bits? I'm not too sure.

I'll talk to y'all about this after tomorrow. But before that, let's just keep our fingers crossed that this is going to go well?

I'm off for the oh-so-important beauty sleep.

I hope you're having a great weekend because I am. Busy. But fun. For now.

Gloomy & Glory

So, yeah, the new semester had started already and neither Rey or Michelle are here. This is not fun. At all. All the people that I actually enjoy hanging out with have either left the college or are not always around anymore. Michelle had basically finished everything and only have one subject left this semester. Rey is also done with Nilai and is waiting to transfer to Canada. I don't see them around all the time also last semester but at least they were around and can easily found when I needed them. But now I'm truly all alone again.

I guess I can start making new friends again but the new found confidence that I had when I entered college had seemed to abandoned me for the time being and I don't know how to get it back again. It kinda sucks because I feel like I'm back to the old Cheyenne. The one who was always worried about what other people thought of me. Not that I didn't feel that way when I was a Freshie but I was new and had no expectations whatsoever since I don't know anyone there, I could be more relaxed. Now I know people and I know I don't want to lose them but that only makes me more concious of how I am because I don't want to be perceived as a loser or whatever. But from experience, I know that that thing, had always back fired on me. Not once but many, many, many times.

So, I really need to get a grip and just continue to be the person that people liked in the first place; myself. Hahaha. That really sound kinda cheesy. But the guy had been really cheesy too and it bugs me. I guess it rubs off. I don't know. As for the people that don't matter, I should REALLY learn to not give a shit about what they think of me. This thing has been slowing me down long enough and should really stop. As usual, like many things, it's easier said than done.

So, anyway, with the two of them gone, I'm pretty sure I'll have plenty of time to let my head wonder. Plenty of "me" time which I really don't mind having. Last semester alone, I've had plenty of it but that was because I wanted it. It was more like my mind needed it. So, I did a lot of walking around with headphones on so that no one bothered me and stuff. I was so wrapped in my own thoughts that I didn't have time to feel lonely.

This semester though. I really don't know.

On a brighter note, I did really well last semester.Yup, got my results about a couple of weeks ago. I got an A for my Biology! HAHAAHHA. WHAT IS THAT ABOUT? I know it's just elementary, introductory Biology but I really really really did not expect that. At all. I still don't know how that happen but I'm sure as hell I'm not going to ask. Hahaha.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see what I have in store for me this semester. If I make any new friends. If they end up to matter to me, I might not even mention them. But we'll see.

Til then, you guys have a nice time now and free hugs for dropping by. :)

Acting Plans

Lights! Cameras! Action! ... yeaaahh.... About that.

I'm really proud of myself to have been able to make that decision. Stand my ground. Firm and strong. But lately, I'm starting to really question how strong I really am to get through with this. I know, okay? I'm extremely lucky to have a pair of parents who probably don't like the idea of me choosing this crazy and obviously risky field but supports and encourage me anyway. What some of you

most probably don't know also is that I have quite a number of extremely supportive friends behind my back. These people have no idea how grateful I am. I mean, really. 

I've been scouting through quite a few colleges both in the States and Canada and as of now, I've not found any one that I can attend. It's either the Film faculty of that university is not good enough for my expectations or the college is just waaaayyy too expensive. I was at Linden American Education Fair the other day and found this awesome art school that I fell in love with. It's called Colombia College Chicago. If you Google Columbia College, there'll be a ton of different results. That's because there are a lot of colleges under the same name but apparently the one in Los Angeles and this Chicago one are under the same family/management. I absolutely love this college and even the alumnus list is impressive (President of HBO Films, Production Designer for shows like Alias, Chuck, Melrose Place, Cinematographers for films like Avatar, Dirty Dancing, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, Isabella Hoffman who was in Dear John and Burlesque,  the writer of I Am Legend and Poseidon AND the FREAKING CREATOR AND ANIMATOR OF POWERPUFF GIRLS AND DEXTER. The list goes on) but the tuition is also b-e-a-u-tiful. So, now, we're (parents and I) are back to looking at the state universities in California. State universities are, of course, cheaper because it's subsidized by the government unlike private schools and Colombia Chicago is a private college.

Those of you who kept up or actually read my tweets about rich girls. Well, yeah, it was based on my experience at Linden. It was held in Hilton KL and there were a lot of rich kids there. My mum and I was probably one of the poorest. You know how these city AND rich kids are like. I know I said I'll bring the last conclusion here but I kinda don't feel like talking about it anymore and it's also because I forgot what conclusion 3 is. Heh. Bottom line is, they can be so arrogant and they think that the rest of the world exists to serve them. These younger generation, especially. Because they were all born with silver, gold, diamond spoons in their mouths, never having to know the feeling of being broke. Anyway, I got over that because it's so boring now. Lol.

Another problem about doing an art major is that many universities want you to submit what they call "samples of creative works" or rather, just portfolios. You know, like how models bring around a file of their previous gigs and shoots to show future clients what they are made of and what they can offer. This is the same concept. Some college, one of the admission requirement is a portfolio and so far, most of them want you to just submit creative works in any branch of art. From films to videos to animations to painting to sketching to sculpting and photography. NOW the problem is I REALLY HAVE TO GET A MOVE ON WITH THIS. I still don't have any "samples" ready and I only have about a year to go.

I have some stuff planned but sometimes I feel like I just don't cut out for this world. I know I have it in me, okay? It's just so hard to get it out at times. Like, for instance, I've been trying to put together a nice new proper script to start on. My friend (whom I consider my rock for my film making dreams), Wise told me that I can just make a series of "webisodes" and post them on YouTube. Great idea, I know. But to have a mini series episodes, you'll need to have one big story to start off with, no? Or at least a concept you can work with. But that's the thing! I couldn't find any! I kept coming up with these silly little stories or stories that are just way too complicated. 

Apparently, many of my stories have elements of sadism in it. It's sort of my thing. I kind of don't like happy endings because that's not always how it is in real life and plays and movies are reflections of how we live, experience, feel and act.  

Then, there was the idea of adapting Tangled Lies into a film.

Now, for those of you who don't know what Tangled Lies is; it's a play I wrote, directed and stared in for my Theater And Acting class last year about a guy whose dark past never stopped haunting him and continue to haunt him and that turned him violent in the end. I think the play managed to blow the audience away because of the acting on the night also. I'm pretty proud of Tangled Lies (despite some of the cheesy lines, yes). but if I were to film it, I'd like to cast another girl as my character, Jane because then it'll be easier for me to focus fully on the directing aspect of the production. Since I directed the play also, I realized how much easier it would be if I didn't starred in it because with me in the scenes, I can't really see the flaws of the acting or movements that needs to be worked on. But then, I can't not act because this was how we were evaluated for the class. 

I can also do the photography thing because a close friend of mine, Prashan is into photography and owns a DSLR (I still don't know what that stands for) camera. He used to go to Nilai and when he was there, he was a regular photographer for many of the events in college and he was THE videographer. So, he really know his stuff. Now that he's transferred to INTI (which is only about 10 minutes drive away from Nilai U) and super busy with his other school stuff, he passed his camera to me to use because apparently, in his own words, "You need it more than me now, with your events and stuff. You can take pictures" Yes, I suppose I am that busy in college (thus, the lack of activation here. Sorry). So, the sweetheart is teaching me how to use it and I can work with it from there, right? 

Meanwhile in college, my number one mission now is to set up the Drama Club. Yes, that's right, we don't have a drama club yet. So, I'm going to have to set it up but then, it's the paper work and possible politics that is making me a little reluctant to do it but I'll have to and I must. Besides, Drama Club! It's going to be so much fun, right? :)

The thing now is that in order to set up a new club, we'll need to get a minimum of 10 people to show the interests people may have in the club. They advised me to get 15 because then it'll be easier and naive as I may be, I do believe so too. But for now, I only have about 12 people including myself. So, only a few more to go. 

I guess that's all I have for now. I really need to stop freaking out, start pushing it and get a really really thick face to get things done. Fingers and toes crossed for that.

I hope you guys are doing well because whoever you are reading this, you should know that you deserve a cookie. Ask me for one the next time you see me. Heh.

P/S: What do you all think about my changing the URL to primadonnasheenanigans? Some of you would know the significance of Prima Donna in that. Hit me up on Twitter or Facebook or comment below and let me know? :D

xo.

Schwork Frustrations

Hehe. Yup. Just as I've expected when I started this thing last April/May. M.I.A for quite some time now, haven't I? Well, I did say I'll try my hardest to keep this blog alive. Here's another thing though, folks. If you've been super duper awesome and actually read my first post, I did mention that I used to run a personal blog such as this one back when I was in high school and one of the reason I shut it down was because there was nothing interesting in my life to blog about. Well, guess what? Now, I have SO MANY things happening that I can barely keep up! There was a week in early November where I was so busy that I barely had any sleep! That's about where I stopped blogging here too because when I tell ya I have no time, I ain't joking. Boy, was that week insane.

So, anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR!  Yup, that's another year gone and two out of six semesters done for me in Nilai. So far, I'm having a pretty good time. I suppose I should fill you all in on what I was "so busy" about, eh? But it's just going to be another long post and I don't want you guys to feel so dreaded reading all these and at the same time, I have no idea how to shorten everything. But anyways, I've decided that they're

Here and There

For those of you who follow me on Twitter and actually read my tweets, you'll most probably know that I was also involved in the organizing team of the college prom. I was in the publicity team under my lady boss, Michelle along with 3 other pretty cool people as teammates (Steve, Illaina and Hajar). Our theme was "Black Swan" and it was supposed to be not just prom, but also the graduation dinner for the graduates (as it was supposed to be held on the night of graduation day) AND it was also a masquerade ball. Ah, masquerade balls. How classy and mysterious, right? I was also very very much involved in the decorating process throughout the whole thing. Masquerade balls, for me, is just one of those things that you know you just have to do, you know? For some people, they refuse to attend prom by using the excuse "I don't have a date" and to combat that, we initially planned a singles' auction but then switched to speed dating! Even us organizing members wanted to join in the fun of Speed Dating (yup, even those who already have dates. HAHA) And yes, I was super excited about it all and to be directly involved in getting the event together too! That meant my thoughts, comments and ideas would be heard and considered! We did a fabulous job, our whole team but sadly, because of some drama with the annoying school management and all, THEY cancelled the whole thing on us. So, yeah, I suppose my first major college event didn't go as well as I would like it to but hey, can't expect everything to be perfect, can I? Besides, I got to meet and became friends with so many cool people along the way despite the drama and I think I totally put my not-so-good Photoshop skills to a whole new level because I got to design a couple of posters. That's something to be proud of. :)

I did these two posters though the Speed Dating one never got printed out. Still proud. :)

Michelle, Emmy, Shaun and Embrys stayed up til about 3am at the SRC office to finish this up only to receive the news that prom was cancelled the very next day. We had a booth at the school walkway and this was supposed to be our decoration for it. The real thing looked about 123489271049374 times better.

Pullman Hotels and Resorts in Putrajaya. It's by the lake and absolutely beautiful at night, drove pass it couple of times. It was supposed to be our venue. 

So, yeah. Kindda sad if you think about it because we had a lot of great ideas that we may never see come to life. But that's okay, I guess it's the school's loss. Sucks for them. BAHAHA.

ANYWAY, after prom got cancelled, we all went back to our normal lives. About a couple of weeks later was already finals weeks. On the weekend before my finals, my parents thought it would be a good idea to go for a short family vaca at Melacca since dad was going over for work at the end of that week and it was going to be a long weekend. I brought my book along but yeah, like that helped anything. I think I only brought it to calm my conscience. Hehe. We've been to Melacca before but that was quite a number of years ago when I was about, what, 12? Of course we went to Jonker Walk. Jonker Walk is one of Melacca town's big highlights and they sell souvenirs. I didn't spend all that much but got super excited when I found a bunch of dream catchers!!

I know they're not the original dream catchers though. But hey, they look pretty! Hehe. I bought two, one bigger one and the another smaller one. Gave the bigger one to a friend and kept the smaller one to myself.

I only had 3 days of finals since I only have 4 papers to sit for and they were all in 3 consecutive days. Starting with English Composition on the first day, American History and Acting on the second and Chemistry on the last day.

And I've also gotten my results back. Hehe. Super proud of myself. I mean, c'mon an A- for Chemistry? That's really something. For someone who had gotten a C for the very same subject for SPM. :)

With a CGPA of 3.91, the pressure is on for the next sem. :|

Catch Up to Make Up

Okay. Operation Catchup shall now begin! :)

There're a bunch of, uh, new people that I need to introduce you guys to. College years is where one "year" is an equivalent to one semester and one semester is about 3 months and I absolutely despise it because things can change so fast in just a matter of days and things happen so fast. So, there, you should be able to tell that in just a couple of months, A LOT of things had already happened.

You know, I'm officially done with my first semester in college? It zoomed past me, I think I barely had time to blink. Anywhoo, I think I wanna update you guys on what has been going on. And I think the best way to do this is

The Many Firsts

Okay, seriously, I don't think I'm very capable of short posts at all. That's what happen when you are so far behind on your posts. Heh. So,  really, guys and girls, brace yourself for another long one. This post is sort of a mash up of everything major that happened over my first couple of weeks in class and school. Of course, some details I would have to skip and kept for my closest confidants only. This might be a public diary but you can't expect me to tell you everything, can you? (*wink wink*). There's quite a few stuff to cover, that's why this is going to be another long post. But don't worry! After this, there'll only be just one more super duper long post coming up, which will be the Orientation Night post (I'm really excited to tell you guys about that one!) If you're still even reading at all by the end of this post, then,

Day 2 of "Making Friends"

Hullo there, this is your really late update of day 2. I initially wanted to have days 2 and 3 combined in one single post but then I realised how long day 2 was going to be, so I guess I had to scratch that plan out. I hope you

The Beginning

Whew! First day finally over! It was a really long day today and I have so much to tell you guys but I only have so little time. Now it's already past 11pm and I really really want to sleep earlier tonight. I suppose I should at least try to fit everything in this post because if I wait to publish this, I won't remember a single thing. Anyway, I didn't bring my iPod or my camcorder with me today, since I know I'll have to leave my bag unattended at least once today and I couldn't risk having them being stolen, can I? Okay. Let's stop wasting time and I'll start from the beginning.

First Sight

Hey ya! This is random, no? A couple of you probably know that I'll be starting a blog, about, well, myself. Some of you probably also remember that I used to have one, until I deleted it in, what? Form 2, was it? But what I'm sure all of you think is that this is random. If you don't think so, then you should because I won't blame you since I totally think so too. Everything about this blog is random, I would say. From the really lame URL to the blog title (which some of you know is also my Tumblr blog title). I kept trying to think of a really suitable "blog theme" for everything to go together but I can't think of anything (a tagline or a word) that sums up who I am. I feel like everything's pretty messy around here. Maybe I'm pretty messed up too? Ah, well, I guess we'll just have to accept it as it is. I've ran out of the little creativity I've had a few weeks ago...

Just a little F.Y.I, I decided to start this thing for the benefit of my favourite stalker (you, yes, you), my no. 1 fan (who has been sending stuff to my inbox on Tumblr) and of course, anyone who actually want to know about what has been going on and what is going to happen. They are amazing people and since no one else cares about my life,I should appreciate those who does. Hahahahaha. If you're here anyway, I'm guessing you're probably bored or hates me and just wants to read my posts just so you have new things to talk about with your minions and roll your eyes at me. If I'm wrong, then you should totally send me an e-mail. Hahahaha. Oh! I forgot! If you're family, well, how's grandma? She good?

My URL, "the other url was taken", haha, here's a funny story: there was no other URL. Like, seriously, NONE. It's just something that randomly popped into my head when I was trying to rack some ideas for my URL and it sort of stuck. So, yeah, with that explained, I don't think any of you will go asking me what the other URL was.

For those of you who didn't know that I used to run a personal blog like this and then have it deleted in form 2, well, then, now you know. I deleted the thing for a few reasons;

First, there was nothing interesting to post. My life as a typical secondary school girl. Homework, busy weekends, school. Big deal. No one cares.

Second, even if there was something that was blog-worthy, i was too lazy to write it up. Hah! Big surprise there!

Third, a couple of my friends (maybe it's you, if you're reading this and if you even remember it, but either way, I know who you are, BOTH of you) kept bugging me to update it. After a while, I got really annoyed with their constant complaints about my constant absense from the blog. So, I deleted it to shut them up by shutting it down. And it worked like a charm.

So, hopefully, this time, there will be interesting things to post about, since I'm heading to college. Everything will be brand new for me. A fresh new beginning. Also, hopefully, this time, I can get my lazy ass to keep you all updated. In order to do that, I vow to post things as soon as I can after they happen, whats with the internet access nearly everywhere, anywhere in the city(ies). Things are also easier with my one-year-old baby (my iPod) and my 3 days old HD camcorder! :)

Okay, time to show off a little. Heh. My father (whom I hope very much will never stumble onto this blog) rewarded me with a mighty sweet camcorder for my effort in SPM. The Sony Bloggie HD Camcorder. It looks like this:

In this exact colour. Blue. It takes still photos and HD videos. Just as the name suggests, it's designed for bloggers. So, why what better way to put it to good use than to start a blog, no? :D

I'm not sure if you'll see more pictures of me though, since I don't really like to take pictures of myself...

Anyway, here's just a little catching up for all of you. If you already know about this (Judy, Sheryl), then bear with me. Or just close the window/tab, nothing interesting anymore :)

College! After months of school hunting, doubts and change of hearts, I've finally decided on what to do with my life. FILMS. I want to make films. Sounds cliche, right? Small town girl, move to the big city, with big dreams and full of hope. And with a dream like this too. Just like in the movies. While most people, my parents (unlike most parents), my brothers, friends, all supported me. Some friends probably smirk behind my back but some I'm already certain I will send them invites to the premiere of my first major motion picture (yay). In movies, however, we all know how it ends. Got really lucky with some execs from some big company who see talent in her, offer her a great position or make her a star and even managed to snagged the really cute boy whom she had first despised. Oh and the movie MUST end with a kiss. Ah, the ultimate typical chick flick. I don't know about my story though. To be completely honest, I'm scared to take a risk this big. My mum and dad let me do it because they want me to be happy and also that, they tell me, it's my decision, I will be the one who will have to live with it whether it turn out well or not. If it doesn't, then it's my problem, not theirs. I, for one, have enough sense in me to have a few back up plans ready.

Back to my college stuff, I initially registered at LimKokWing University. The huge Cyberjaya campus is only a few minutes drive from my house. I decided to register because it was the best place to do a film making course locally. And also, I registered at one of the education fairs that I visited and they were giving away a semester abroad ticket to those who register on those two days. I literally have a ticket to London right now. In my room. With no expiry date, between 2013 to 2014. but of course, In order for it to be valid, I have to be a LimKokWing student.

Then, we (as in, my parents and I) heard that LimKokWing had earned themselves an unpleasant reputation in the business. So, we thought that it will be safe if I were to do A-levels first, since it's recognised elsewhere (and that my second choice after Films was LAW, one of the best first step towards that was A-levels) and then only decide if I should go to LimKokWing after I've finished my A-levels. Sounds reasonable, right? I thought so too. Until we went school hunting and visited Help University. The guy there told me that since I wanted to do films, why not do it in AMERICA? Thus, introducing their American Degree Transfer Program (ADP). And so, we thought, "Hey! Why not?!". Comparing prices, it's even more worth it to study in America than to do it at LimKokWing (I shall not go into details in the mechanics and mathematics of this, heh).

So, we started researching on ADP at other universities; Taylors, Inti, Nilai, Help. And again, comparing prices, systems in each schools, subjects offered, visits to each universities, we thought that Nilai University College (Nilai UC) was best.. I've already registered myself at the school.

Here's how the American Degree Transfer Program (ADP) works:
With a total of 4 years altogether, 2 years will be spent in Malaysia (the americans call it the freshman year and the sophomore year), learning a little bit of everything, because the Americans like their students to be all rounders. But we can choose anything in our fields, of course. Like mine is Liberal Arts. There're science and business streams. I have yet to choose my subjects. The next 2 years, as you can guess, will be spent in America, the junior year and the senior year. The third year is when you choose your major, minor and university in the states. By the end of the program, you'll have a degree. So, basically, I'm not going to be doing any pre-uiversity and jump straight into my degree since in this program, the first two years are technically my "pre-U" already.... I think...? So, anyway, that's how it works. :)

Are you still with me? You are? Good.

As for the highly anticipated event that is NATIONAL SERVICE or as i call it, JUVE (for juvenile), it has been postponed, until I finish my 2 years in Malaysia (that is, after my "sophomore" year), right before I go over to the states (that is IF everything goes smoothly). Which will be in 2014. Now THAT is also another LONG story, which I will not go into.

On my long break, from after SPM December to this month May, I've been rotting away at home. Tumblring, tweeting, baking, watch a bunch of TV shows and movies, driving. Since all my friends are in Kuching, it's been pretty lonely for me. Oh, the gossip and girl talk. At least I'll stop rotting soon. I will be going to school on Saturday (tomorrow) for registration and hopefully get to choose my subjects and get my schedule.

Orientation starts on Monday may 28, classes starts on Monday June 4. The orientation will be going on for a full week. Gah. I should probably start rescheduling my biological clock to sleep and wake up earlier. As usual, this is easier said than done.

Aaaaaaaaaannnnndddd that's all for now. :) Yay, you survived my first whiny post! *applause*

P/S: I wanted to use the "Lights! Camera! Action!" graphic above as the sidebar picture but Blogger picture widget doesn't support gif. URGH. So, I thought I'll use it as my sidebar gif for my Tumblr instead. Once I've found a nice theme for it...

P/P/S: Some parts of my blog are still under maintenance, like the watch or die movies list... I'm still working on some of the poster remakes. THAT supports gif, so yay. Hopefully Photoshop will work with me...