Drama Trauma

So, I held a meeting to discuss Drama Club details today.

And no one came.

Well, okay fine, someone did. Only one, and I know she would because she's one of the rare few who are actually responsible and would do as they promised. First of all, this is not surprising and I totally expected this. HAHA. No, I'm really not joking. The campus seemed to have died or something. I mean, sure, they still walk around, go to class and everything but no one's doing any activities anymore at night, no one's busy planning any huge events like they used to in my first semester. There're even no more people dancing in Science block when the sun comes down. I don't know if I mentioned it here before but I used to complain about how people in Nilai are so freaking obsessed with dancing (apparently only after the dance event that happened just one semester before I entered. It was hailed to be one of THE best event to ever happen in Nilai.).

So, yeah, I'm not to bumped out because if people are not passionate about it, then fine. I'm not gonna force you people. I mean, it's not like I didn't tell them that there was going to be a meeting. Last Saturday afternoon, I posted the announcement on the Facebook group and this morning, I texted everyone whose number I have to remind them. Still, no one showed up. So, you know what? Doesn't matter. I'll just do this another way then.

Unfortunately, this also means that I'll have to independently shoot a short film on my own without any platform. Which could even be faster, actually because to start this club, there are a lot of procedures to go through and honestly? It still doesn't guarantee that I'll have the opportunity to do what I want to do because the authority might not be with me.

Look, I'm writing this right now not to whine or rant, believe it or not. I admit, I am a little frustrated and somewhat lost. I feel like I've failed at what I set out to do. And yes, I'm terrified of how people would think of me when they found out I've abandoned the club but I'm really trying to use this as a training for me to learn the whole "don't care what people think of you" thing. But still, I'm scared of letting down the people who have been with me from day one. Two main people in particular.

What's the next step then? Well, yeah, I have some ideas on how to move on from here. We'll see which road we'll have to take next. Yup.

Jesus, where's the confident boost when I need it?

I hope your day was better than mine.